Even with intensive therapy for years and so many people trying to help her, Layna doesn't seem to be getting better. As a matter of fact she seems to be getting worse..... Last night she hit a new low. Which always amazes me since whatever the last one was I always think "She can't do any worse then that". Now I know that I truly have no idea what she is actually capable of, which is SCARY. I do not trust her around my 2 younger children AT ALL. She is starting to say things about Paige which actually scare me... A LOT. I will be putting safeguards in place today to insure she does not hurt them.
Yesterday I got copies of all her medical records from her old therapist... Scary stuff. A lot of things I have forgot about, a lot of things that are just heartbreaking to see in print. But reassuring that other people see it, that I am not going crazy, that this is all VERY real....
Her new therapist told us yesterday that she qualifies for "intensive wrap around services". I am not sure what that will all entail but I hope it is A LOT. She is wait listed for respite. Which today makes me want to cry, as we desperately need a break from her.
It amazes me how much damage can be done to a child by the person that was suppose to be the one they could count on the most..... I thought her birth Mom was doing better. I was horribly wrong. And now there is yet another child in this world that she is damaging. First by drinking during her pregnancy and now by raising it in domestic violence....Sigh.....
Digging deep today to find Joy in the journey....
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2 comments:
nI grieve for your struggles. I am an adopted mom also and have had trials along the journey with kids behaviors and birthparents. Let me know if there is anyway I can help you.
It is so frustrating when they say you need immediate interventions but they drag their feet to provide them. Just know I am praying for your family and can relate to what you are going through.
The old saying 'people need love especially when they don't deserve it' is really hard. Just like 2 Corinthians 16:14 says 'Do everything in love.' Sometimes it feels so unclear what is the loving thing to do. In Him,
I am so sorry. May God reveal Himeself to you tomorrow or this next week, to renew your joy and your hope. I am praying tonight for your heart, but also for the safety of your kids.
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